20 years ago I saw a little girl who was weak, helpless and filled with guilt and wondered to myself “What happened to her?”, “How did she end up this way?”. I could tell she needed help but when I reached to her my arms remained at my side as if paralyzed, unable to move. I didn´t know what to do so the frustration built and the anger grew stronger and stronger. The anger got so strong I couldn´t see the little girl anymore or myself. I was lost and unable to control the emotions that I held inside me. Close relationships took a huge hit when my communication became short and annoyed. I didn´t know where I wanted to live or work, or who I wanted to love or hate. The control was gone and there I was halfway between possible breakdown and complete destruction.
In my first session with Christie I didn´t know where to start but it didn´t take long before the she was able to tap into some of my core issues. Having those out in the open made me feel vulnerable but I was comfortable to do so. Christie taught me how to be gentle with my emotions and to not be so hard on my judgment of myself. She reminded me to forgive myself for the beliefs that I had made up and brought me back to reality where I was strong and capable of love.
I started counseling just having bought an apartment but wanting to move back to Kelowna to be part of an emotionally abusive relationship. I was prepared to drop everything I had worked hard for because I so badly needed evidence that my negative beliefs about myself were true. Today I am settled in my home and my work with no distractions pulling me otherwise. My relationships are ones that reinforce love and strength around me. I continue my counseling to battle upcoming conflicts and to help continue my growth towards loving myself.
The most important thing I´ve learned is how to wrap my arms around the little girl who needed help and to tell her (myself) that her innocence is untouched and her spirit remains whole and strong no matter what.
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K. R. Langley Client - Relationship issues and depression April 13, 2017
